Last week I was handed a chance at a new project which could have been interesting and lucrative. This morning I asked if I could hand it back. I'm not getting it, and it's eaten too much of my time, energy, and nerves. I can't in good conscience work on something where I'm not going to hand in a good product. And I'm utterly frustrated with it all.
I hate failure. I hate being trusted with something and then failing to hold up my end. I hate not understanding things, no matter how hard I work to get them. I hate having to say out loud, I can't do this for you. I'm not as good as you thought I was.
I hate failure. It just feels crappy.